Love me, Take me, Betray me, Leave me

There is my past, and them...
There are lot of lies. And me behind them...
There are my tears, my laugh. There are yours.
Behind me, I know that there is reality, but I can not look Her straight in the eyes.
I have some things to learn, like how to lie, how to smile, how to love.
I am searching a way for me. For my children. For my futur. But, is it real ?

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